I want to be angry right now.  I think I just figured it out…

The past hour or so I’ve been sitting in this hotel room alone, slowly fuming for reasons unknown.  I want to get mad at Dave for taking so long for getting the kids.  But really he left at 10:15-ish and it takes 1 hour to get there, and one hour back.  So if he went picked them up and came back then by 12:15 he should be back.  But they are at their grandparents so maybe there’ll be a little visiting.  Which means he gets there around 11:15-ish then gone by 11:45-ish.  I got a pin from him at 12:04 saying they were just leaving Penticton.

I want to get angry and I want argue with someone.  I want to make somebody feel bad so in turn they will make me feel good.  How retarded is that.  That’s what I “figured out” before I started with what I thought was going to be this big rant.Anger is so retarded.  At least this kind is.  Now the question is why do I want someone to make me feel good, why am I not at 100%?

*After Thought* I realized that I was just hungry.  After I had some food I felt MUCH much better.  After eating and seeing my baby’s smile everything was back to being A-Okay.